Deviation Log #10: Duality
Codex Mortis II. Initiation Before the Unmaking- Entry 30
This is part of Codex Mortis, a ledger of disintegration. To begin at entry one, click HERE
– I keep seeing doubles – two robins on the fence, two deer in the meadow – always two. What happens now? What happens to the half left behind?
– The phone rings – voltage – the blood halts – is it time? Is this The End?
– The hummingbirds abandon the feeder – even they know to leave before the end.
– I practice saying “widow” in the mirror – the word won’t sit right in my mouth.
– The manzanita blooms white – funerals in miniature.
These fragments catalog the months before death arrived--the signs I couldn’t read, the omens I misnamed coincidence. Not memoir. Not healing. Contagion as chronicle. What the body remembers when language fails.
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